A Voice That Cannot Be Silenced – But Why Does It Hurt So Bad? [Part 1 of 2]

Seasons come and seasons go, and yes, there are times in our lives when we will go through some seasons of extraordinary pain and rough experiences. Such can cause you to ask illogical questions like, “God where are you?” and “Why me?” It can be an experience of unprecedented nature, comparable to ‘a dark night of the soul’ journey where you can actually let out the cries of a travailing birthing woman or, if you are like me, you can become numb and anaesthetised by the thought of, ‘this too shall pass,’ or ‘God never gives me more than I  can bear.’ Too weak to cry out  aloud, your groans becomes your voice, ‘a voice that cannot be silenced,’ through which your prayers can be heard. Have you ever been at that place in your life? Or, perhaps even as you read this article, you are saying, ‘that’s exactly where I am right now.’ Well, I can assure you, that you are in for your greatest empowerment moment ever with some sound encouragement and answers as to ‘why does it hurt so bad.’ 

• Birthed through much breaking, crushing, wounding, rejection, pain and suffering. 

Here is the plague that never seems to go away, and one that you are never completely delivered from but always delivered through! It is the pressure of the constant seasons of Christ-like crucifixion required to provide the character adjustment that are essential to your calling and purpose. One such training I call it the ‘boot camp’ or the ‘backside of the dessert’ training that involves depths of breaking and crushing that is incomprehensible and inconceivable to the average Christian. It is often the source of moodiness and the overwhelming grief and heaviness of spirit that you can carry and which can last for years.

• A burden bearer

Often times you carry not only your burden but also the burden of others, feeding deeply the things that are going on in the hearts of the people around. You’ve probably realized by now how you somehow have the ability and the capacity to process pain two or three times more, and carry the weight and the burden twice as much as the average Christian. Compassion is found deeply embedded in your heart.  

• Rarely totally happy

Because of the frequent seasons of heaviness, total happiness is not completely present. True and lasting happiness comes when you’ve reached that level of maturity and have finally made peace with your gift and peace with God and peace with yourself operating in the ministry gift.

• Eats of the bread of affliction

This is so true as many times you can find yourself ministering the bread of life and the water of the word to others who listens while you yourself at that very moment is eating of the bread of affliction – ever so often called, ‘going through.’ The combination of the ministry with the moment of affliction is attributed to the natural ability which God has given to you to penetrate spheres, realms and domains beyond the flesh (natural man) and spirit, beyond the visible and invisible aspects of God’s creation to discover the truth of God at work.

• No price tags attached

You have no price tags attached and in the absence of such, you nor your ministry gift cannot ever be bought  or sold. Note how you are always recognized but rarely accepted as you live above the need for ministerial expressions, reward and fame. You are never associated with compromise!

• Lives in obscurity and ‘splendid isolation’ in the ‘above all’ realm

It is an above all experience of a lifetime as you ‘ride’ with God in the secret place (Ps.91:1) and lives in the height and presence of Him. (Eph.2:6) You are careful to speak in obedience to God under the power of His Holy Spirit and come down in the valley with thus saith the Lord to announce, pronounce, denounce or when an assignment of yours is complete. You are referred to as God’s detective and it is a fact that without this type of work in the body of Christ the church is prone to error and sinfulness. You understand that your  cooperation must be with God in breaking down all that is not built on the true foundation, while at the same time you watch over all that God is doing in the nation to see that it is built according to His word. 

• Lives constantly under the microscope

Have you ever wondered why you are constantly under the microscope and why others tend to judge you differently than they would others? That is because a much higher standard of holiness is expected of you than any other. It is said that honesty and integrity must permeate the life of each individual in order to ensure credibility.