“I was regretting the past and fearing the future. Suddenly my Lord was speaking: “MY NAME IS I AM” He paused, I waited. He continued, “When you live in the past with its’ mistakes and regrets, my name is not I WAS. When you live in the future, with the problems and fears, it is hard, I am not there. My name is not I WILL BE. When you live in this moment, it is not hard, I’m here. MY NAME IS I AM.”…..A heartfelt apology can’t change the past, but it can brighten the future! LORD FORGIVE ME FOR MY UNBELIEF.” (Michael Curtis) It was not luck and chance. It was not a coincidence either that as I opened up my facebook page today that this friend’s post would “pop right up into my face to slap me back into reality.”
A huge lump developed into my throat. I gulped immediately as I tried to swallow the guilt and the shame that I felt from me not trusting God the way I normally would do. I know I should have. Tears welled up into my eyes. Everything in the room was suddenly blurry…obscured by the tears that spread like a white sheet over my eyes.
My day was just not going the way that I had planned it. Moments prior, I realized how anger and frustration had slipped in to my room. And so as my spirit man gasped for what seemed to be it’s last breath (death through unbelief) like a first responder would through CPR to resuscitate you, I said, “Speak to me Lord. Forgive me for my unbelief.”
It is quite natural for us to respond with fear when we are thirty thousand plus feet in the air and we come up against bad weather and turbulence, especially that the aircraft took off in excellent weather conditions. It is also a natural human instinct that we are a bit ‘iffy’ about things we haven’t seen before. We are thrown off by the things that don’t look like us, act like us, or move like us. If we find ourselves in a place that we’ve never visited before, we are constantly looking at our maps, if we have one, or we keep looking at every sign post, hoping to get to the place that we set out on that journey to go on.
My dear EMoments reader, I plug this in as a reminder that no matter where we go in this world, God is there! You and I are on His radar. His Global Positioning System (GPS) never fails, it never malfunctions and it needs no service nor repair. Just because my day did not go as I had planned for it to be, did not mean that anything was wrong with the way it was turning out to be.
Did I deserve what I got or how miserable I felt in that moment of tantrum because things didn’t go my way? To some extent, yes. You may see it differently but, I still stick to my yes. (wide grin on my face) Why? I was disobedient! I quenched the Spirit of God who had already told me, “trust God with it.” I needed to trust God like He had told me earlier on when I realized there was a shift from my original plans and days’ schedule.
My final thought: God’s word says, “For he that soweth unto his own flesh (old Adamic mindset/way of thinking, sowing to please sinful nature) shall of the flesh reap corruption; but he that soweth unto the Spirit (new Adam way of thinking /exercising faith and hope in God) shall of the Spirit reap eternal life. (Galatians 6:8 ASV)
Trust God no matter what. You are constantly on His radar and like a mother hen watches over her baby chicks, so it is the Lord watches over us. Blessings!